Tuesday, December 03, 2013

4th Quarter...

I know it’s been awhile and I hope things with you are going well. I would credit Thanksgiving for providing me the inspiration to write again.
Of course when you don’t update your blog regularly you are faced with the daunting task of remembering all that has happened. In October (the 20th to be exact), my husband and I celebrated our 1 year wedding anniversary. We took a trip to Kauai and it was great. I would say this trip is another example of our many blessings. Of course, you get caught up in temporary seasons or circumstances and begin to question if you’re living life “right” or why is this happening to me?
I say for every minor setback a triumph is ready to happen. Lately, I have been questioning my purpose. Am I doing what I was put on this earth to do? What is my purpose? It may also just be the timing of the year. Typically, around the 4th quarter I start taking inventory of the current year and what have I done so far.  While I am excited and happy about most of the things I’ve accomplished this year, there’s always room for improvement. That’s just the perfectionist in me. But what’s wrong with wanting more? Honestly, I am looking to hit another milestone (professionally). I got my Masters in 2009 and started a new career in Sales last year (2012) and was promoted within my first six months but I still feel stagnate. Now what?
I have a new project I am working on with a friend and perhaps this new adventure will turn out to be gratifying. More on that once we’re in our groove. Funny how a new year can evoke so many thoughts and motivation to do better, but that’s life.   In my Wendy Williams’ voice…”How You Doin’?”

Thursday, April 04, 2013

Tick Tock, there goes my damn clock...

As a 33 years old woman, I am beginning to wonder about this “biological clock” deal. Last year, when I found out I had Fibroids my Gynecologist informed me that my plans for being an “older mom” needed to be revised. When I was in my teens I swore I would start my family by 30. Well as 30 began to slowly creep up on me, I changed my plans to having a child in my late 30s or early 40s. Keep in mind; I did not have a husband (or a potential one) at that time. It was just another one of my lofty goals. My doctor advised me to look on the brighter side, at least now I was engaged to be married to my now husband. Her point being, there’s no extra stress in finding a man.

Well here we are almost a year later and once again, I am being reminded about starting now (if I want to have a child). I understand since the beginning of time, we have known that woman become less fertile after 35. However, our generation started a trend of putting off having a family for the sake of securing a career. I guess there is never a perfect time to start a family. For me, I am not ready 100 percent mentally. I still feel very selfish about my freedom and time. Hell, I am still adjusting to having a husband (it’s been almost six months). I know I want to enjoy time being newlyweds but now there’s this pressure of deciding when we should start having a kid.

I am very grateful for the fact that my husband is extremely supportive of my decision. Maybe because he has a son already, so there’s no immediate rush. But there is a sense of urgency on my part, I realize my Mother is getting older and I would love for her to enjoy her grandkid (especially since she’s retired and enjoying life). We also have plans to do as much traveling as possible and once you have a child things get reprioritize. Well I guess, I will find out the latest from my doctor during my appointment tomorrow morning. 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Off to LV: Operation Wedding Prep Mode

So excited about today, we’re off to Vegas this evening. This isn’t a typical Vegas visit. We are actually working on our wedding plans. I can’t believe tomorrow will mark 4 months until we say “I do”. I am freaking getting married…

Tomorrow (June 20th) is action packed with vendor meetings most of the day. We’re looking at rental shops, meeting with; the DJ, photographer, ceremony officiant, florist and doing our menu tasting. It’s exciting and a little overwhelming at the same time. The next day (June 21st) will be the day of cake tasting. Somewhere in between the wedding stuff, I am going to need to hit a slot machine or table. 

Man, this journey is amazing. I can’t believe I found someone to love for a lifetime. I am so looking forward to this trip, mainly because of the purpose….

Friday, May 25, 2012

Engagment Party...

What a difference a week makes! Just this time last week I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off prepping for our Engagement Party. The big day was May 19th and it was an amazing event. I must say I admire all event planners and have absolutely NO desire to change my professional aspirations. My mother, brother and his wife flew into Dallas to join us in the festivities. My mother arrived last Wednesday evening and I had a heavy itinerary from the moment she came into town. I wanted to go dress shopping with her since I don’t have that luxury on a daily basis. I found my dress!!! The dress isn’t what I initially envisioned for myself. In fact, we went to a small bridal boutique and the owner happened to be a wedding dress designer. I didn’t pick one of her dresses but she has an eye to pick out exactly what looks great on me. Back to the engagement party, it was held at a restaurant and we had about 50 people there. I wanted to include our close friends and loved ones. Everyone had a great time and the pictures were amazing. This event was the official kick off for operation October Vegas Wedding. We’re so excited yet there’s still so much to do. Next assignment is the wedding invitation and bridesmaids dresses. Here’s a photo of our sweet treat table. I wanted a small candy bar. Our wedding color scheme is shades of purple with a splash of red ☺

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Game Change

In honor of our Father who rose from the dead this day, I believe its time for me to also rise from my old self and move on to better things.

Our wedding plans are coming along.

However, professionally I need a change. I find myself wondering: am I serving my life's purpose? Am I ready to try something new? What is my identity?

Going into the think tank...

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Monday, March 12, 2012

Too Blessed to Be Stressed??

I suppose since I am getting married in October, wedding details would be high on the stress list. Too bad it’s not. Since my fiancé’s surgery, I have had to deal with one thing after another in regards to ensuring he has a good recovery. The last few months have been a true test of the “through sickness and in health” line within the wedding vows. People often ask me “how are you doing”. I don’t truly have an answer to that question. To be honest, I don’t dwell on my feelings. I just react and keep it moving. It’s almost like I am on autopilot and I don’t allow myself the opportunity to examine my feelings. Perhaps this blog may be a great outlet. If only I would write posts more often.

Right now we’re dealing with his partial facial paralysis. We are hoping he will regain the facial muscles on the right side of his face soon. Worst case, it may never come back. Since his condition is strictly based on the individual, there is no real way to predict when things will return to “normal”. At this point, it’s about being patient and supportive. Both of our moms have asked if we still want to move forward with the wedding. He immediately replied yes, I want to as well. But of course I can’t help but think about our wedding photos. What if his face isn’t “normal” by then?

We found out there’s an association for people with his condition and attended a local group meeting a month ago. We were encouraged by the group for many reasons. One, it’s good to know you’re not alone in these types of situations. Two, they all told my fiancé he looked great considering it was only 90 days since his procedure. However, it’s hard to hear him wake up and say “I want my face to work” every day. At this point, it’s about being patient and having faith in God.

You would think wedding invitations, dresses, engagement party, etc. would be wearing me out at this point. I honestly, haven’t focused a lot on those things. I have sometime before I need to panic but it will require my attention soon.

With all that is going on, I have to sit back and look at the positive side of all of this. We are both blessed in regards to finding each other and being there unconditionally. We are obviously going through this for a reason and this situation is reminder of what’s truly important. Yes, I am looking forward to my wedding but I will also become someone’s wife and my life will now include my husband’s. As I type that, I am moved by the anticipation of spending the rest of my life with someone…

Thursday, November 17, 2011

They say what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger...

I'm sitting here in a waiting room at a hospital while my fiancé is undergoing brain surgery. I don't have the energy to explain how we got here but here I am. Talk about the true test of love and having faith. We've know about this issue for about three weeks and have spent the time waiting for the scheduled day for surgery.

I have never gone through something so traumatic and stressful. The level of anxiety I feel is unreal. We have about four to five hours left. The nurse will call us every hour to give us an update. I stayed with him until they wheeled him away from me. We will get through this but God this period of waiting is the worst.

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